Definition of pour out
: to freely express (an emotion) : to talk freely about (something personal) I listened while he poured out his anger and frustration. She poured out the whole story.
Websters
For whatever reason, what we thought was going to be, isn’t.
We are crushed, but not broken. Hurt but not dismayed.
What we held n our hands and got to love on for very few short hours was amazing for this side of Heaven. It was worth every minute of pure bliss.
Even though circumstances changed for us, the best thing really did happen.
Simply stated: A mother decided to mother.
She has 100% of our prayer support! We absolutely love the mother, the father, the child, really the entire family. They will always be a part of our village.
I wish a few things had been different but it wasn’t about me or us.
There is power in the mighty name of Jesus and we spoke His name over all of this precious family. We are honored that we would be given the opportunity to even share such a couple of days with all of them.
We visited another church on Sunday morning, just mostly I couldn’t bear to be asked questions quite yet. Still too raw. This pastor was speaking directly to us. I needed to hear God’s Word desperately. He spoke of trials. It seriously was the most encouraging sermon we have heard in a while.
Holy smokes – we have had our share of trials this past year. We would gladly hand them over anytime and wish them to cease and desist.
Our vision is still Him and He is the prize. He truly has all of us in His best interest. He loves us and that sweet precious family in His hands. There is no better place.
Joy does come in the morning, it just doesn’t feel like this is the morning quite yet.
And if you are asking why I am sharing…it is very therapeutic for me to write plus it just seemed right.
Feel free to leave a comment with your favorite scripture, we would love to read them.
Blessings to you! You are loved!
Cindy Young says
You guys are so LOVED….and so is sweet Pickles! We’re praying for ALL of you!!!
Mari Rodriguez says
“Delight yourself in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart!” Psalm 37:4
I’m so sorry Lana! Only God knows the master plan, but even through this, you are leading people right to Him and paving your way to everlasting joy. Thank you for being so vulnerable and pouring out your heart with us. You, your family, baby and her family are being lifted in prayer. ????
Sally Pena says
Philippians 2:3-4
New International Version
3 Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit.(A) Rather, in humility value others above yourselves,(B) 4 not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others.(C)
U my friends have been an inspiration and boy can I see the glorious hand of OUR MIGHTY FATHER through u all!! I may not have the courage to follow whatever HE tells me at THE EXACT moment but through you I’ll definitely have the courage to try!!
Stacy Edwards says
You know, you’re the kind of loving, caring, sacrificial, involved momma she needed…for encouragement that she too, can be an amazing mommy like you!!!! I’m so sorry things didn’t go as expected, so I’m praying for peace and comfort for all of you!! But never forget, you inspired her. Y’all’s willingness to take a baby into your home, that showed them Jesus’ love!!!! Oh how He loves us! Love you guys! Continuously praying!!!!
Gina says
Lana, I’m so glad for the update, my momma heart has been hurting for you, just knowing something was happening, but hoping it wasn’t. I’m so proud of you and of course your whole family for being willing to do whatever the Lord asks of you, honestly I wish I could be just like you! Your impact on people is immeasurable, and someday you will know just how far the ripples of your kindness reached! I’m praying for your heart and of all involved❤️
Reba Kirchner says
I am praying for y’all. This same thing happened to our Elizabeth & Ross. Even though we didn’t see it at the time, Romans 8:28 was in play. God did work all things for the good. Love you so much Lana. Continue to heal, physically & emotionally, knowing that God is always walking beside you.
Reba
Mirella Oakley says
I love you Lana?
If I could show you my Bible,
John 14 is ‘ raw ‘ .
I have spent so many hours in this chapter of the Bible. So many trails have led me here like if the trails were trails?
I have cried in these pages, and I have been strengthened here too?
julie ford says
Lana and David, truly sorry things didn’t work out the way you wanted, but like you said, the parents want this baby and even though y’all are crushed, this is where she needs to be. God has His reasons, maybe God has another little one picked out especially for all of you, maybe He just needed this to happen to help the parents realize this child is precious and needs to stay with them. I know things are tough right now, but God will give you your hearts desires. Love all of you.